je m'aime

"When people can walk away from you, let them walk. Don’t try to talk another person into staying with you, loving you, calling you, caring for you, coming to see you, or staying attached to you. When people can walk away, let them walk. Your destiny is never tied to anybody that left."

It's obviously a piece of cake doing the last line of the quote. But we know, especially who are left by our xxx, that it's not that easy !!
Anyway I got it from internet a while ago. But I can't remember who the writer is.
I ever heard this line, in the film and also in the radio (an announcer said it), "Never talk to someone who broke your heart. Whereas with your ex who dumped you first. It's a big NO to befriend him again. 'I'm happy as long as he's happy'. That's a bullsh*t. How can you happy if he's with somebody else instead of you? You, the one who love him head over heels. You, the one who would stay up all night just to be the first who wish him a happy birthday. Coz there's no way he can come back to you. You still have your OWN future. And it's way to be useless if you spend it to mope about him, who doesn't love you back. Keep it in your mind."
You know what, I'd love to be the announcer instead of the 'you'.

"It hurts to look at you anymore, it hurts to talk to you anymore, it hurts but yet I do it. I find myself looking for you, and see you. The only thing is, is that you don’t really care. It hurts a lot to see that you don’t care, maybe one day, not any day soon it will stop hurting. You know what they say you always remember your first true love."

ki-ka : Ratri Dewi, Phrichilia Devi, Dias Amartiwi, Sonya Venesianila, Angie, Noviana R

yeaaaaaah, they're succeed making my college life colorful!!
Oh, actually there's more than them, but I only have the picture six of us,,
Well?? Are we cute enough? haha..

There’s a possibility
There’s a possibility
All that I had was all I gon’ get
There’s a possibility
There’s a possibility
All I gon get is gone with your step
All I gon get is gone with your step

So tell me when you hear my heart stop,
You’re the only who knows
Tell me when you hear my silence
There’s a possibility
I wouldn’t know

Know that when you leave
Know that when you leave
By blood and by mean
You walk like a thieve
By blood and by mean
I'll fall when you leave

So tell me when you hear my heart stop,
You’re the only who knows
Tell me when you hear my silence
There’s a possibility
I wouldn’t know

So tell me when my sigh is over
You’re the reason why I’m close
Tell me when you hear me falling
Theres a possibility
It wouldn’t show

By blood and by mean
I fall when you leave
By blood and by mean
I follow your lead

OST New Moon, it's played when Isabella is broken-hearted, she becomes lifeless and she feels she would never resurface again...
if you want to download it click Lykke Li - Possibility.mp3

I played a few Facebook Quizes last time. I'm Twilight Saga person through and through. x))

'What is my love story?' Twilight

your independent and you have never really thought about falling in love until you meet the perfect person while there are some differences between each other, you realize you cant live without him and wonder how you did before he came into your life.

'What cullen boy is right for you?' Edward Cullen is the right guy for you because he can always put a smile on your face, he protects you, hes always with you, and he tells you everything! (suits me well)

'What is your perfect hairstyle?' Short and pixie. you are edgy and have a lot of fun you don't need long locks to get in your way of looking beautiful your punk! (kind of Alice? Oh, fine)

'What is your vampire power?' Reading minds, You knew every one well enough when you were human that now that you are a vampire you can read their minds you can read everyone's mind now but you can't read shields. (exactly like Edward. Awesome)

'What is your vampire name?' Evalina. You spend your days wishing that you were human. You don't like hurting people, and wonder why you chose to become this way. Your love is a human, and not because he smells good. Your rose is Pink and means, Grace and Compassion. (I don’t get it)

'What Greek Goddes are you?' You are Aphrodite! The Greek Goddess of love and beauty. Like Aphrodite you love to express yourself in many ways. You like to share the love and when it comes to love itself, you're very passionate. You're as beautiful on the outside as you are on the inside. Many people are either envious of you or wish to be you. Know that you may cause squabbles between lovers, but as long as you stand you're ground, love will always flow in your life. (Greek goddess. Well, Edward looks like Adonis, one of Greek God. ah, I just try to relate this unsuccessfully)

even though I tell it not to go
even though I tell it to stop
my heart keeps going toward you
it doesnt wear out, it doesnt decrease

one by one, I count and count the memories
my heart cant rest for even a moment
it'll just become baggage that becomes hard to control
why cant I even throw them away?

really, my heart must have done something somehow
I must have become a fool that's blind for love
just one place, everyday one place
looking at the sad light that is you
even the tear glands must be broken
my tears wont stop
I love only you, only you
cant you just tell me?

even if I hold out my hands, no matter how much I call out
you're always far from me
it'll be a love that becomes painful scars
why cant I erase it?

really, my heart must have done something somehow
I must have become a fool that's blind for love
just one place, everyday one place
looking at the sad light that is you
even the tear glands must be broken
my tears wont stop
just one word... the one phrase that you love
cant you just tell me?

I try to comfort myself with the lie
that I'm happy if you just smile
because the place you're going towards is not me
the lonely tears flow

really, my heart must have done something somehow
I must have gone crazy over this hard love
cant have you, cant forget you
waiting for you day by day
I must have gotten ill from missing you so much
from loving you too much
cant you just share it with me?
cant you just share it with me?
cant you love me?

Psikologi tes saat LKMM (oh, yang jadi host-nya putih bersih, hehe)
Tes psikologi yang menggambarkan seperti apa dirimu sebenarnya. Mungkin ini agak sedikit aneh tapi kayaknya cukup meyakinkan deh.. Nah, lakukan keempat instruksi di bawah ini dengan baik, JANGAN lihat bagian hasil atau jawaban di bawahnya. Kalo kamu curang, well, tes ini sama sekali gak berhasil untukmu.
But, at least, let's give it a try first. It wouldnt hurt, trust me, pal!

1. Ambil satu kertas untuk ditulisi
2. Bayangkan satu nama hewan di benakmu lalu tulis di kertas tadi, beserta sifat-sifat mereka yang melekat di otakmu saat menyebutkan nama hewan itu
3. Bayangkan satu nama hewan lain dan lakukan instruksi seperti di nomor dua
4. Bayangkan nama hewan ketiga dan lakukan instruksi seperti di nomor dua

Sudah? Beneran udah ditulis???




Oke, kita beralih ke jawaban dan kamu bisa mencocokkannya dengan kepribadianmu. No offense, no pressure.
Semoga berhasil!!



Hewan pertama menunjukkan hewan tersebut adalah anggapanmu bagaimana orang lain melihat dirimu.
Hewan kedua menunjukkan hewan tersebut adalah caramu memandang dirimu sendiri, anggapan dirimu sendiri seperti hewan kedua ini.
Hewan ketiga.... Hewan inilah yang sebenarnya dirimu. Kau bersifat kurang lebih sama dengan hewan ketiga ini. Believe it or not, well, just look at yourself for a minute, maybe you can find those characters in that animal in yourself but you never realize it OR you never admit it.

Haha.. Yeah, aku ikut LKMM (yang wajib diikuti semua anak) minggu lalu. LKMM berlangsung selama dua hari penuh - Sabtu dan Minggu. Ugh, it took my lovely weekend and turned it into wicked weekend.

Well, seperti permainan di atas, yah, aku juga melakukannya. Sama seperti semua peserta LKMM lainnya. Dan inilah hasilku, haha.

1. Penguin - langkahnya kecil tapi berusaha berjalan cepat, mahir berenang, stia dengan pasangan (ini aku lihat di Happy Feet, di mana ortu si penguin tokoh utama sangat mencintai pasangannya, dibaca: setia)

komen:

yeah, menurutku ini cocok. Di poin terakhir maksudnya.

2. Singa - aumannya keras, pandangannya tajam, larinya cepat

komen:

haha, aku gak tahu harus mikir hewan apa jadi karena aku kebayang Twilight (Edward is a lion who fell in love with the lamb) jadi aku nulis hewan ini. Tapi kayaknya sifat-sifat singa gak ada yang cocok ma aku.

3. Cheetah - beringas, lari cepat, pantang menyerah mendapat mangsa saat lapar 

komen:

  Aku bisa mati ketawa di hewan ketiga ini! Ugh, this is so not me. Apakah aku beringas?? Lariku cepat? Yah, kalo aku gak lagi males, pasti lariku cepat, as well as other people. Dan pantang menyerah mendapat mangsa saat lapar. Wow, it sounds scary

Uhm, I dont what I should say.
Tapi saat aku lihat kedua temanku yang duduk di kanan kiriku saat psiko tes ini berlangsung, well, those animals suited them. Haha, Sorry, Phricill and Novi... xp

ini kayaknya hampir main di indosiar TAHUN LALU.. masih satu atau dua episode gitu, diberentiin.. sial!
akhirnya pinjem dvd nya dari temenku,,
walhasil,..
ugh, the sceneries are ARE ALL AWESOME! ini belom semua

di negara eropa ada, di korea ada, bahkan sampe pedesaan gitu,,
aduh, suasana spring apik banget dah!
ceritanya dua temen masa kecil yang berpisah. Sampe gede pun mereka masih menyimpan partner mereka dalam hati masing-masing. Dan itu nyebabin mereka sama sekali gak ngelirik cowok ato cewek lain. Duh, dalem sekali pokoknya. Tapi ada satu cewek dan cowok lain yang terlibat di dalemnya...









Yang paling aku demen adalah soundtrack-nya! Dengerin ato download di www.4shared.com kayaknya ada deh. Apalagi buat yang suka lagu-lagu klasik or resital or whatever, kayak gitulah, ini sangat direkomendasikan..
Ih, pengen deh punya love life kayak mereka, hha

the white starlight envelops the tears
the tears fall in the warm wind
do you feel it?
this trembling, quiet whisper that is going your way

i draw you on this white paper
the warm smile holds me
is this love?
even when i close my eyes, i see only you

i will be waiting for you
i will wait for you
i don't want to see the tears of pain anymore
you let me know
this love that's like a lie, i'll never let it go
because that love is you

i'm walking in my memories with you
the tears fill even the deepest area of my heart
what should i do?
even in my dreams, i miss you

i will be waiting for you
i will wait for you
i don't want to see the tears of pain anymore
you let me know
this love that's like a lie, i'll never let it go
because that love is you

please look at me, like the faraway stars
can't you be the one that's in my heart

i will be waiting for you
i will wait for you
i don't want to see the tears of pain anymore
you let me know
this love that's like a lie, i'll never let it go
because that love is you

Waiting for your call, I'm sick, call I'm angry
call I'm desperate for your voice
Listening to the song we used to sing
In the car, do you remember
Butterfly, Early Summer
It's playing on repeat, Just like when we would meet
Like when we would meet

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

Stripped and polished, I am new, I am fresh
I am feeling so ambitious, you and me, flesh to flesh
Cause every breath that you will take
when you are sitting next to me
will bring life into my deepest hopes, What's your fantasy?
(What's your, what's your, what's your...)

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

And I'm tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
x4
(I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight
(I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)

Secondhand Serenade - Your Call

"Hey, this is Taylor Lautner from the Twilight Saga New Moon. And you're about to get a first look at the film, exclusively on I-tunes .. "



cant wait till November 20th !!!!

I dont know if I can yell any louder
how many time I've kicked you outta here?
or said something insulting?

I can be so mean when I wanna be
I am capable of really anything
I can cut you into pieces
when my heart is broken

please dont leave me
please dont leave me
I always say how I dont need you
but it's always gonna come right back to this
please, dont leave me

how did I become so obnoxious?
what is it with you that makes me act like this?
I've never been this nasty

cant you tell that this is all just a contest?
the one that wins will be the one that hits the hardest
but baby I dont mean it
I mean it, I promise

please dont leave me
oh please dont leave me
I always say how I dont need you
but it's always gonna come right back to this
please, dont leave me

I forgot to say aloud
how beautiful, you really are to me
I cannot be without, you're my perfect little punching bag
and I need you, I'm sorry

please, please dont leave me
baby please dont leave me
no dont leave me
please dont leave me
no no no

I always say I dont need you
but it's always gonna come right back
it's gonna come right back to this
please dont leave me
please dont leave me
I always say how I dont need you
but it's always gonna come right back to this
please, dont leave me
baby, please, please dont leave me


it's Pink's song (Pink the foreign singer, not one of my friend in high school). I watched the video clip months ago (when I was still lingering around the house every second I have in a day coz I didnt have anything important to do, after graduating). If we look at the lyric, well, it seems the singer really desperate with her boyfriend (or maybe her ex). But what happened in the video clip isnt like that. Haha, watch it at youtube maybe someone posted this video clip.
I like the beat. Ehem, and obviously the lyric, hhe.

minggu ini aku dapet pelajaraan SAP yang menarik.. Dosennya menceritakan beberapa cerita yang berhubungan dengan kognitif atau pikiran. Salah satunya adalah yang akan ku tulis di bawah ini.

Suatu ketika ada dua orang Pendeta, Pendeta Tua dan Pendeta Muda. Kedua orang ini bepergian di alam bebas dan saat itu akan menyebrangi sungai yang lebar. Kebetulan saat itu aliran sungai sedang deras, maka kedua orang ini menunggu hingga air sedikit surut. Mereka tidak sendirian, ada seorang wanita yang sepertinya memiliki tujuan yang sama dengan para Pendeta itu, menyeberangi sungai. Ia berdiri tak jauh dari mereka. Jelas terlihat bahwa wanita tersebut ngeri melihat arus sungai yang deras itu.
Tak lama kemudian arus sungai tadi menyurut. Pendeta Muda iba melihat wanita tadi. Maka diangkatlah wanita itu dan digotong wanita itu oleh Pendeta Muda. Pendeta Tua hanya diam, berpikir dan menyimpan marah, mengapa si Pendeta Muda menggotong wanita itu menyeberangi sungai.
Sesampainya di seberang, para Pendeta dan wanita tadi berpisah dan mengucap terima kasih. Lalu sepanjang perjalanan ke depan Pendeta Tua tadi tetap berjalan dalam diam.
Karena tidak tahan lagi, Pendeta Tua berkata, "Hei, mengapa kau tadi beraninya membawa dia ke seberang sungai? Kau tak tahu bahwa kau melanggar aturan?"
Pendeta Muda berkata, "Lho bukankah wanita itu sudah ku turunkan dari tadi? Kita sudah berpisah dengannya. Mengapa kau masih membawanya dalam pikiran Anda?"

Did you get it? Si Pendeta Tua masih memikirkan wanita tersebut beberapa lama berselang padahal si wanita tidak berjalan dengan mereka lagi.. Aku juga bingung menjelaskannya.
Nah, berkaitan dengan Miyabi yang akan datang ke Indonesia dan banyak orang Indonesia yang berselimutkan agama tertentu menentang keras rencana itu. Sampai kabarnya Miyabi yang akan bertandang hari Rabu (14/10) dibatalkan sehari sebelumnya. Dan kelihatannya produksi film bakal diundur juga.
Kalau memang Ozawa ini datang ke Indo dengan alasan membuat film 'panas' itu memang beralasan mereka menentang kedatangannya. Nah, ini.. Si produser film sudah berkali-kali menekankan, film yang akan dibuat ini sama sekali tidak ada adegan 'panas', malahan dibuat selucu mungkin, karena sepertinya bergenre komedi. Dan apabila memang nantinya LSF mencekal penayangan film ini, mereka tak bisa berbuat apalagi. Dan kata sang produser, setelah selesai produksi film itu nantinya akan dipertontonkan dulu pada petinggi agama, agar mereka bisa melihat sebenarnya bagaimana film itu.
Di pikiran mereka yang menentang bahkan berdemo itu pasti membawa pikiran kotor tentang Miyabi dalam pikiran mereka, sadar atau tidak sadar.
Beberapa tahun terakhir dikabarkan Ozawa telah membintangi 2 film yang bukan film orang dewasa. Salah satunya film horor. Bukan jaminan bila Ozawa tampil di sebuah film melulu film tersebut film orang dewasa.
Banyak juga film buatan Indo yang pemainnya bukan pemain film orang dewasa, tampil seronok atau malah condong ke adegan 'panas'.

I am so into this serial --> Sassy Girl Chun Hyang

Are you sorry?
Are you sorry I love you?
I know my love has made you suffer
But I still cant let you go
Cry a little more but forgive me
It’s no
It cant be
Even if I hide my tears
You have forgotten we did together
It hurts
But we’re still happy
You always talked to me
If you cant erase
Now I really want to love you

I downloaded file about vampire (again). I just read it. It contained many comments from some people. And they were like shouting comment there. They debated about vampires do exist and vampire do exist not. I dunno what to choose coz I’ve not seen any of them in reality. And I doubt there’re vampire among us here, Indonesia where has high temperature and I dont know someone who acts weird. Or they have so pale skin, sharp fangs, and all that. Here’s few of the articles :
You cannot be born as vampire – TRUE
Vampires are shape-shifters – TRUE (someone objected)
Vampires only active at dark – FALSE (instead they have use sunscreen spf 50!!!)
There are different types of vamps – TRUE
Vampires are immortal – TRUE (they have certain gene which control hormone aging)
The first documented cases of Vampires, seems to come from the Sumerians centuries ago – TRUE
Vampires only sleep in coffins – FALSE (hwahahahaha)
Garlic will keep you safe from vamps or even werewolf – FALSE
Vamps can fly – FALSE
The Christian cross will repel a vamp and make them powerless – FALSE

July 13th

I already finished ‘Perahu Kertas’ by Dee (the day after Idul Fitri). It’s good, made me want to read it till the end in one moment. So, that’s one morning, I sat down and I finished it. Get a mixblood isnt that bad.
Messages from the book:
1. BE YOURSELF so that the perfect guy in the school will falling in love with you
2. IGNORE WHAT PEOPLE SAY is more relieving than you heard everyone said about you
3. if your friend DECLINES A MATCH-MAKE for your other friends, that means she/he loves the target
4. IT CAN HAPPEN when you hug your boy/girl, one moment he/she is thinking bout their unrequited love
5. DO NOT EVER BELIEVE anything that you see in 10 meters distant
6. you MUST BE ABLE TO dechiper your bestfriend’s problem with only saw her/his face
7. go dinner in a half-dark place so that your partner will see your beauty (it's not that

if they want to make the film based on this novel, please, seek for fresh actress and actor for Kugy and Keenan role. Dont pick actor who has been at one tv series (sinetron) with bad acting. And also for Noni, Eko, Ojos, Wanda, Luhde, Jeroen.
Perahu Kertas rock!!!

"The truth of the matter is, every heterosexual boy – and probably some gay ones too, so look out, because that’s just going to end in disaster – you ever meet is going to fall madly in love with you. He may not admit it, but it’s true. So you have to take responsibility for that, and not do things to encourage him – unless of course you want him to fall in love with you. Because it’s cruel to play with boys’ emotions in that way, because no matter what anyone else says, men are the weaker sex.”
Do you believe that? I got it from Airhead (1) by Meg Cabot.

Pengantar Filsafat minggu ini sangat membuat kantukku nambah. Apalagi ini pelaran ketiga hari itu. Dan aku sudah harus datang ke kampus jam setengah delapan. Dosennya seperti gak mau tahu apa yang kami rasakan. Atau mungkin dia sudah mafhum dengan kebiasaan-kebiasaan para mahasiswa saat diberi pelajaran siang-siang, apalagi di bulan puasa, tenaga udah sangat berkurang. Beliau tetap mengoceh tentang garis besar apa yang akan kami pelajari semester awal ini. Tetapi suaranya yang lamat-lamat kedengaran, mic yang suaranya agak kekencengan dan terus menerus ngeluarin suara ngiiiiiiiiinnggg, seakan makin menyuruhku untuk gak mendengarkan apa yang dikatakan beliau. Sudah gak terhitung berapa kali aku menguap. Mungkin lebih dari sepuluh kali. Kulihat sebagian besar mahasiswa juga bernasib sama denganku. Mengapa dosennya tidak mengadakan suatu olahraga ringan untuk mengusir kantuk kami dan bisa lebih segar mendengarkan beliau (seperti yang pernah terjadi di Lazzterix). Apa ia tidak peduli apakah kami bisa mencerna apa yang beliau katakan selama satu setengah jam? Atau memang karena ini pertemuan pertama maka ia tidak merasa terbebani apakah kami mudeng ato tidak. Hmmm. Bagaimana aku bisa menghadapi ini dan bisa meraih IP 3 di akhir semester???

Bagaimana ini, aku kangen masa esema !!! >,>

heiheihei

wuah, gempa yang terjadi 2 September lalu tepat pukul 14.55 membuat kewalahan seluruh awak Pulau Jawa. Saya sendiri sih tidak terlalu merasakan. Bukannya saya tertidur saat kejadian, saya malah sangat sadar tetapi memang berada di atas tempat tidur. Yang saya rasakan tiba-tiba tubuh saya bergoyang-goyang kanan kiri.. Saya duduk tegak dan mencerna apa yang terjadi. Tetapi saya tidak merasakan goyangan itu lagi (ya iyalah orang kaki gak njejak tanah, duduk di atas spring bed gituh gak ada yang dirasain). Tetapi kipas angin saya ikut bergoyang-goyang. Saya menggelengkan kepala untuk menghilangkan pikiran aneh itu. Oh, ternyata bukan pikiran aneh, tu kipas angin beneran goyang. Saya mengangkat bahu dan kembali tiduran. Seakan pikiran akan gempa yang barusan itu hanya tipuan mata dan pikiran. Namun setengah jam kemudian di Metro TV menyiarkan hal gempa yang berpusat di Tasikmalaya. Astaghfirullah, ternyata gempa yang sebelumnya saya rasakan bukan tipuan indra saya. Dikatakan dikhawatirkan akan terjadi tsunami, maka warga dihimbau untuk mengungsi. Tetapi akan segera dicabut pernyataan itu jika pukul 17.00 tidak terjadi tsunami.
Tidak terjadi tsunami saja sudah menelan korban. 44 orang meninggal. Kemudian ada 6 tubuh lain yang ditemukan di bawah reruntuhan bangunan. Apa yang sesungguhnya terjadi? Apakah ada penjelasan ilmiah tentang ini? Atau murni hukuman dari Allah akan sesuatu di negara kita?

aku mau ngucapin beberapa patah kata (ck ck) ke sahabat-sahabatku yang mau ke luar kota atau ke luar daerah ...

Arab : jangan nakal, ya, say di sana. Bergaul sama orang yang bener. Semoga tambah rajin belajarnya (secara FKG gitu loo). En besok kalo aku punya masalah gigi, boleh dong ke kamu (tapi kasih diskon tentunya!)? I guess I'll see you again later. Hiks.

Mami : you rock, mmi! Jangan lupakan anakmu ini yah. Oia, ntar pulang dari UGM (habis lulus) bagi-bagi ilmunya, ya mmi. Ugh, I'm lame at saying goodbye. Pokoknya jaga dirimu baik-baik, mmi. Kalo udah laper langsung makan jangan nunda-nunda, kasian maagmu..

Ruru : my little fella, I'll miss you so bad. Belajar yang rajin, ya! Kan ini ceritanya bakal ke Jakarta nih, ntar pulang-pulang, aku harap tampilanmu udah gak kayak anak SD lagi, ya. Lebih dewasa, (outer and inner, I hope).

Belle : huff, bel, I dunno where you wanna go. Tapi dari yang aku baca di fb ke Ca'ama, mau mantep PLN ya? itu di luar s.m.g kah? ati-ati yaa.. jangan pernah lupa kalo kamu punya kembaran di sini.. hikz.

Granny (DM) : wew, granny keren ke unpad (bener gag) .. tak doain semoga sukses en (kyk yg sudah2) punya banyak temen, kalo ada yang cakep simpenin buat aku, gran. tentunya kalo granny juga udah dapet yang cakep dulu. jangan lupa kontak, gran ..

Pipit : wah, satu lagi temenku yg keren (FK UI), gak keren darimana coba?? cuma satu pesenku -> jangan terlalu senewen kalo belajar, pit.. mendak kurus mulu, lho..

And for the rest of my friends who still lingering in SMG (for next 3-4 years), I said 'GOOD LUCK' for you all. Although we wouldnt see each other again every day, I wanna let you know that I'm gonna miss you, guys. And never give up hope. Amin.

I got up this morning with pain in my throat,, I think it's because yesterday I drank ice tea excessively. I cursed under my breath. Then I began to start my activities like the other days. Sweeping the floor, reading newspaper, and listening to my MP4. After a half an hour, I felt wanna take a bath. Then I did it (no longer than 5 mins, haha). I ate my breakfast, I took more portion this morning coz I only ate once yesterday. I watched dvd after that and ended lying on my bed. I felt hot on my face, dunno why. an hour later, I guess my granny already off to her bedroom, I watched tv again (maybe for an hour). I felt myself hotter (in the real meaning). Next when my aunt passed and peck my forehead before she off to work, she told me I was feverish. Oh, no. I found myself thinking after that. asore throat, feverish, and rather sleepy: that's what I got before doctor said I got thypoid 4 years ago (oh, and also two months ago). Oh, no! I hate myself. I suffered myself.I wish I dont have to get this sick again. I tried to eat lunch (these days I wasnt customed to have lunch) even though I still feel full. Coz thypoid or whatever I got 4 years ago caused of my exhausted mixed with my hunger.
help me with telling info which can cure my sore throat in short time..

I could try you with a waltz
I could try you rock and roll
I could try you with the blues
If a song would do

I could sing it high or low
When I let you go you know
I thought it was for the best
Now it is so obvious

So here it is, here it goes
I could try rock and roll
I would change your life forever too
If a song could get me you
I could make it high or low
Sing it on the radio
If that is what I need to do
If a song could get me you

I could run for miles and miles
I'd take off and I'd start flying
I could cross land and sea
If you just believe me

I should not have hurt you so
This old house is not a home
Without you here, there's no use
I've got no time left to lose

So here it is, here it goes
I could try rock and roll
I would change your life forever too
If a song could get me you
I could make it high or low
Sing it on the radio
If that is what I need to do
If a song could get me you

If a song could get me through
I'd sing my way, right back to you
Tell me how, to make it right
Tell me now, I'll start tonight
I know I could make it last

I swear to you that if I knew
What I was getting myself into
I wouldn't answer to my fears
I'd never leave you standing there

Just look at me

If you'd only see me
I would prove my love for you
I could swallow half the moon
Just tell me where, tell me when
I will have you back again

So here it is, here it goes
I could try rock and roll
I would change your life forever too
If a song could get me you
I could make it high or low
Sing it on the radio
If that is what I need to do
If a song could get me you

So here it is, here it goes
I could try rock and roll
I would change your life forever too
If a song could get me you
I could make it high or low
Sing it on the radio
If that is what I need to do
If a song could get me you

i'd like you to watch the clip,, lovvvve it so much